First Day of the Year

A new day, a new year and I'm not making any resolutions.

I went to an OA meeting tonight, it was right where I needed to be. Food has been calling to me lately, things I don't normally eat like cookies, chocolate and deep fat fried ANYTHING.

I lost 100 pounds once. Yes, once and managed to regain every single pound plus more. Just like the Big Book says 'we get worse, never better.' I got progressively worse without meetings and relapse is hard to get out of. There are still times when I feel like I'm in the throes of relapse.

Getting ready for the cruise is hard. I hate packing, I hate deciding what to take and looking for things.

I hope Mom does OK while I'm gone. My sister Jean is here to look after her, but I think she doesn't always tell Jean the things she tells me. I'm the older one, I guess I'm supposed to be stronger as well.

I'm so excited to be seeing Leanne again, 10 years later, almost to the day. We had so much fun and so many laughs. Many good memories to share.

I hope I can find a way to update my blog from the boat, that would be SO cool.

A friend gave me a journal to write in every day to keep my memories in.

Only 2 more sleeps until we leave for Miami.

I want a Cuban sandwich and a mojito.